Carry On

[xtedheadx]

I can't believe how long it has been since I posted last!!!
Anywho, i can't wait for more you do a great job with this story ;D

[chloe]

thanks guys, i have finally finished it. its not that good, but its the best i could do right now. so comments and critism would be greatly appreciated and taken into consideration

Chapter 17

-Carry On-

Teddy was now in my arms crying hard into my shoulder on my front porch. Mat and Kim were still standing at the door in shock, no-one knew what to do or say, so we were all there staring at him having his episode waiting for a response.

“Teddy” I said with a quiver in my voice. Seeing Teddy crying like this made me both upset and worried. I still hadn’t found out what had happened, but I knew that it would be a bombshell of a story.

“Teddy……………babe……..please tell me what’s happened” I said as I got no response “please Teddy, you are really scaring me” I said as he looked up at me.

“its… its rac” is all I could make out. He was still crying hard so he was mumbling his words. I started repeating what he had said in my mind to see what he was trying to say. It was rac…… what’s rac?. I thought hard, then it hit me. Its Rachel!

“its Rachel??” I question as Ted started to cry harder. By that response I knew it was defiantly something wrong with Rachel.

“Mat” I said as my brother broke out of his daze if that’s what you would call it.

“yea what’s wrong”

“can you help me get him inside” I said as my brother nodded and quickly came over to where we were.

“come on mate, lets get you inside” he said to Ted as he put Teds arm around his shoulder and lifted him off the floor. Teddy just swung side to side, and was stumbling on his feet, so Mat basically threw him over his shoulder and walked his up the stairs to my room.

-Carry On-

I walked over to the side of my bed where Teddy was now asleep, and pulled my comforter over his body. The poor guy had cried himself asleep. I turned around ready to walk out of the room when I heard a noise that sounded a lot like a phone on vibrate. I looked over at Teddy and realized it was his phone. I pulled it out of his pocket and looked at the caller I.D that said ‘home’, I quickly went to answer it but it had stopped ringing. I looked at his screen to reveal he had 14 missed calls- all from home, and 7 text messages from both of his parents. I walked over to my desk and grabbed the home phone that was among all the junk on my desk, and dialled Ted’s home number. Three rings and the phone was answered

“hello” Rachel said on her end of the phone. It was so easy to decipher her voice, it was cute and innocent yet had attitude to it at the same time

“hey Rachel………………………… how are you?” I asked her. She didn’t seem to be sick or anything, which is what I thought from Teds reaction to her name and the fact that he was distraught over something that had to do with her.

“hey Cindy um im good………um my mummy has been trying to call you, she wants to talk to you about something to do with Teddy, he ran out of the house before crying, but I don’t know why” she said as I could hear her walking around on the wooden floorboards in the hallway of their house.

“yea I thought she may have been calling me……can I please talk to her”

“um yea I just have to find her……I think her and daddy are in their room, ill go check for you” she said as I could hear her running up the stairs. “Mummy Cindy is on the phone” I heard her yell to her mum, as she handed the phone to Lorilyn

“Cindy?” Lorilyn questioned to make sure that it was me

“hey Lorilyn” I said on my end of the phone

“oh Cindy darling I’ve been trying to get in touch with you for ages, is Ted with you?” she said a little worried

“yea he is here” I said as I heard Lorilyn sigh with relief

“is he ok?”

“not really. He is distraught over something. I found him bawling his eyes out on my front porch, and he eventually cried himself to sleep”

“ok jeez,, my poor boy” she said. At this moment I thought it would be the right time to ask what was going on, I was just about to ask when Lorilyn spoke again

“Cindy…….has Teddy told you anything about why he is upset?” she asked

“not yet…….he was to upset to speak” I said knowing that she was going to tell me now- hopefully

“honey, its Rachel” she started as I could hear her getting upset. “she is really sick as the moment……………..she has cancer………. and we don’t know if she is going to get better” she added on as she started to cry in the phone.

I just went silent as I listened to Lorilyn cry into the phone. Its kinda hard to think of anything to say when you have just been prompted with the fact that someone very close to you is sick with cancer and they may not get better, meaning that they may not be around for much longer. But I didn’t understand, she was just a young healthy girl, who loved dancing around in her room to the newest pop crazes, who loves to dress up and play with all her friends from dusk till dawn, who loves playing and talking to her care bears even though she knows she wont get a response, who loves to annoy her brothers and make cookies, she was a typical young girl who’s only problem in the world was trying to figure out what ice cream flavour she should have for dessert that night, but now she is the girl that is sick with cancer and may not get better, no no, they must be talking about another Rachel.

“Lorilyn I don’t understand, how, why, what type of cancer does she have?” I questioned as Lorilyn cried harder into the phone

“im...im sorry Cindy, ive got to go” she said crying heavily into the phone. She was to upset to talk about it and I understood that it would be to hard to talk about. But I still wanted an answer.

“I understand……………..Lorilyn I know you may not see it now, but I promise you everything will be ok” I said sympathetically into the phone. I just made a promise that I know I cant keep.

“thankyou Cindy” she barely said in between tears as the phone line went dead. I put the phone back on the hook and dropped into my computer chair. A million things were rushing through my mind, why does she of all people have to be sick, she is just a poor innocent girl, she doesn’t deserve this neither does her family.
I looked over at Ted who was rolling around in my bed, he must be having a bad dream, but I suppose if you found out your sister was sick and may not get better you would probably have bad dreams as well.
I got up and walked over to my window ledge that was still occupied with the things I left there before. I sat on it and wrapped the blanket around me and held tightly onto my teddy bear. I just sat there, thinking about what Lorilyn had said as I watched the last bit of sunlight disappear into the darkness of the sky. I started thinking about Teddy and how distraught he was. It was tearing me apart to see that the guy I have fallen in love with was tearing at the seams, and all I wanted to do was stitch him back up………but I couldn’t. Nothing I could possibly do would take a way the pain of this bombshell. I looked over at him once more sleeping there on my bed, with his hair all tussled, his eyes all puffy and wet, and his face all red. I just wanted to go over there and take away all the pain, but no matter how hard I wished I could……I couldn’t.


so tell me what you think, comments and critism or ideas are welcome and greatly appreciated ;]

[jessb]

that was amazing... i really feel bad for them all and it's not even a real story... but it seems so real, it's crazy
anyway i know you just posted but i must have more soon!

[hesonmymind]

OH MY GEIGER
im speechless
this story is amazing
wait its beyond amazing
i cant believe she has cancer- that is so sad, and poor Teddy

ur writing is fantastic you seriously hav amazing skillz

post more asap

[chloe]

bahaha oh my geiger- funny

anyways thanks guys
ive got most the next chapter done
but ide like a bit more feedback b4 i post it

[megan]

please post more soon. your story is awesome! :]]

[chloe]

thanks guys for the feedback

-Carry On-
Chapter 18

I woke up the next morning to find that Teddy was no longer next to me in bed. I rolled over and looked over at my window to see him sitting on the window ledge with his back to me looking out at the sky. I yawned loudly and sat up in bed, hoping that he would hear and turn around- but that didn’t happen. The truth of the matter was that I was afraid to talk to Teddy. I was afraid that whatever I would do would make him upset. I didn’t want to say something that would anger or sadden him, but then again I didn’t want to sit there and say nothing because it would seem like I didn’t care.
I finally gained some common sense and realized that Teddy needed me at this point in time, so I shouldn’t feel afraid to be around him, in the case that I make the situation worse.
I pushed the comforter off my lower body and hopped out of bed in the direction on the window. I slowly made my way over to the ledge being as quite as possible, the moment didn’t seem like it needed noise. When I reached Teddy I extended my arm and placed it on his shoulder as he jumped slightly, I must have scared him.

“hey” I said in a quiet whisper as Teddy turned around and looked at me

“hi” he replied back in a croaky whisper, as he moved to the side of the ledge so I could step out onto the small platform that extended on off of my window.

“Teddy…I……am…….talked…..sorry” I stuttered breaking the ice- I guess it wasn’t really smooth at breaking the glass in situations like this. There was just so much I wanted to ask and tell him, but I didn’t know where to start.
I looked up at Ted who turned away as soon as I looked at him and was now looking to the left at the street full of people on their early Sunday run. I brought my knee’s closer to me as I prompted my head on my knee, trying to gather my thoughts, so that the next time I decided to speak I would make sense.

“Teddy………..I talked to your mum last night” I stated as Teddy looked away from the street and straight into my eyes.

“was she ok?, was she still really upset?” he asked a bit anxious and worried

“um I cant really say, when we first started talking she sounded ok, I guess, but by the end she was in tears and had to go” I said as Teddy bit his lip and looked back at the street.

“I think I better get home then” he said as he started to get up but I grabbed his hand

“Teddy your mum told me about Rachel” I said as he stopped getting up and fell back on the ledge where he originally was and looked at me as I could see his eyes getting a bit watery.

“what did she tell you?” he asked

“she told me that Rachel was really sick………….with cancer and she may” I stopped at this point, Teddy was looking at me with really watery eyes. I didn’t want to continue what I was saying, but he insisted. “she may…….she may…not..get……better” I stuttered as Teddy looked away from me to hide the fact that he was starting to cry. He wiped his eyes and gathered himself together before he responded.

“Cindy” he started “you know how Rachel hasn’t well for a while now?” he questioned as I nodded. You see for the past couple of months Rachel hasn’t exactly been well. She’s been having random dizzy spells and she had blackout a few times, but the doctors just said that she was fine and blamed it on multiple things. But then one night about 2 months ago she was rushed to hospital in the middle of the night with a high fever and she was throwing up, but the doctors didn’t have a diagnosis and decided to run some tests over the next months. I didn’t really think much of it and neither did Teds family, until now I guess, because Rachel had been fine ever since.

“well on Wednesday my parents got a call from the doctor who was doing all those tests on Rachel and he said that he had results, so he organised for my parents to meet him yesterday so he could go through the results with them and all. So my parents went yesterday and got the results.” he said as tears escaped from his eyes. I got up and moved so that I was right in front of him. I lifted his head that was now lowered and wiped away his tears with his hoddie that I was wearing. He looked me in the eyes as he grabbed onto my hands and squeezed them slightly.

“Cindy, Rachel has stage 4 leukaemia, and the chances……..the chances of her….re……cove….ring….arentlookinggood” he said as he was now crying.

“babe im so sorry, come here” I said as I leaned forward with my arms spread open and hugged him as he cried in my shoulder like last night.

-Carry On-

Teddy had now calmed down as we were still sitting on the ledge that extended on from my window ledge. We were sitting side my side with his head leaning on my shoulder and my head leaning on his head. We were sitting in a silence that I wouldn’t call awkward, yet I would completely call it a comfortable silence either. Teddy didn’t really have anything to say, and I didn’t know what to say, so we were both just silent. After what seem like forever Teddy spoke.

“thankyou for last night………and just then” Teddy said looking away from the view and directly at me. “I just, I couldn’t stay at home after what I was told, and I had no where else to go” he said as I lifted my head off his and looked at him

“Teddy this home is always welcome to you, don’t ever feel like it should be a last resort to come to” I said as I reached out and took hold of his hands. He squeezed them tightly, but not to tight.

“I know, thankyou, it just I felt closest to you, and I only wanted you to see me like that, not anyone else. You mean so much to me Cindy, and I realized how much that was last night, when I ran straight to this house, coz I needed you to be the one to be there for me, not anyone else” he said as he took his head of my shoulder. I was glad that I was the one he trusted the most, and the one he felt most comfortable to see him like that, it just shows how strong our relationship was.

“well im glad that I was that person you needed” I said as I brushed his bangs to the side of his face to uncover his eyes as he leaned up and kissed me and I kissed back.
We broke away from each other by a knock at the door.

“its opened” I called as the door opened to reveal Mat holding the home phone.

“Teddy ma man………the phone, its for you……its you mum” he said as Teddy quickly got up and ran to my brother and got the phone. I nodded to my brother as if to say ‘thanks’ as he closed my door and walked away. I just sat there on my ledge looking out over the houses to small cliff/beach area that was just outside of Rochester, but was still visible from my window the as Teddy talked on the phone.


-Carry On-

“my mum wants me to go back home” Teddy said as he came over to me and broke me out of my daze. He had just gotten off the phone to his mum.

“ok…….is everything ok?” I asked as Teddy took a seat next to me

“um not really……my parents are going to break the news to A.J and Rachel, then to the rest of the family” he replied as I got a bit confused. They hadn’t told Rachel yet? I thought to myself
“hasn’t your parents told Rachel yet?” I asked

“not yet, they were going to tell all of us last night, but they couldn’t, so they took me to the kitchen and told me there. That’s when I ran out of the house and came here

“ow ok, well that’s understandable” I said “well you better get going then” I said as Teddy nodded

“Cindy……..can you please come with me……I already told my mum that I wanted you there, and my mum agreed, and she wants you there when they tell A.J and Rachel as well” Teddy said as I became shocked. Why would she want me there?? I thought to myself, this was a private family matter.

“are you serious…….your parents actually want me there?” I asked as Teddy nodded

“yup, mum really wants you there, she said that you were like part of the family, and she knows that Rachel is close to you, and she thinks that Rachel needs as many people around her as possible when they tell her” Teddy said as a tear came to my eye

‘wow….well in that case we better get ready and get going” I said as Teddy agreed and we both got up to get ready.

-Carry On-

“I don’t want to go in” Teddy said as we were standing outside his front door of his house. “Cindy after my parents tell Rachel and A.J, I don’t know how Rachel will react…..im scared” Teddy said as I grabbed on to his hand and interlocked my fingers with his.

“Teddy everything is going to be ok…….im here for you ok?” I said as I squeezed Teddy’s hand as he looked at me

“ok………….ok lets do this” he said as he reached out for the door nob and turned it. This was it I said to myself bracing myself for what was about to happen

[jessb]

LOVED the update!
can't wait for more
soooo..... more soon please!

[megan]

i love this fanfic; it's amazing. awesome update. post more when you can. :]

[hesonmymind]

nsdffbnefbebnebjqek gkqerg be'r
GAH
that was amazing and beautiful
this story has so much emotion and im loving it to say the least
post more when u can

[chloe]

thanks guys for the comments
ive got some of the next chapter done and ive got some idea's from people off the official boards so ive got alot to work with
but if anyone has any critism, comments or any other ideas i would love to hear and will take into concideration

thanks for reading
xoxo

[chloe]

i wont b able 2 post some 4 a while- ive just got to much to do. School, work, wedding, christening, 16th bday parties are all gunna take a toll
so after nxt week i shall start writing and post
sorry guys
xo

[hesonmymind]

oh man i thought u updated
darn i really got excited- ok thats lame i get excited over a story lol
but that sucks you have so much on
bahah wen i read wedding i was like wtf ur not getting married
then i was like ow ur sister hahaha- did u end up finding a dress
anyways i will b waiting for the update

[chloe]

sorri
haha nah it aint lame
man i cant believe we stayed up that long talking, my hands were getting tired from typing lol

bahaha no im not getting married sam is haha and yea she ended up picking the dress' there like brownish- ill explaion later 2night on MSN

but sorry agn guys 4 not posting more and for not being able to post for a while

[hesonmymind]

hahaha i no my hands were super tired from typing as well same with last night

anyways cant u give us like a teaser on the story to tie us over until next week
pretty please with Teddy on top?