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-Carry On-
Chapter 19
Now how exactly are you suppose to explain to a little girl that she has cancer, it doesn’t really come up in everyday conversation now does it? And then after you tell her, how are you suppose to stand there and tell her that everything is ok, when it clearly isn’t?
Sitting in the lounge room of the Geiger’s house just didn’t feel the same at the moment. The house that was once filled with happiness and joy was taken over by a big dark cloud of gloom. The news had now been broken to A.J and Rachel leaving everyone in tears again. A.J had run out the front door, much like Teddy last night, Rachel ran up to her room and to top it all off, Teddy’s grandparents had turned up early. Teddy ran after A.J and I ran after Rachel whilst Mr and Mrs Geiger went to break the news to the grandparents.
-Carry On-
“Rachel…its me” I said in a calm voice as I knocked once on her door and could hear the sound of her crying through the door.
“hun can you please let me in?” I questioned with no response.
I turned around and started to walk away towards Teddy’s room, she obviously didn’t want to talk and just wanted to have some time to herself, although at age 6, I doubt she could think clearly after being told something like that. Wait…did she even understand what was going on, as I said she is only 6.
I broke out of my daze by the sound of a door opening, I turned around and saw Rachel standing at her door tears running down her face with ‘sparkles’ her favourite care bear in hand. I walked over to her and got down on my knees as she fell into my arms. I held her in a tight hug as she cried more into my shoulder.
TEDDY POV
Chasing after A.J isn’t as easy as it seems. Since when did he get so fast at running? He was always fast but not to fast that I could barely keep up. We had now run to the local park when all of a sudden he just stopped dead in his tracks and fell to the ground so he was on his knees. I slowly made my way over to him, with each step taken I could hear his cries. By the time I had finally reached him he had his head in his hands crying. I bent down and lifted his head out of his hands as I wrapped my arms around him in a hug. He hesitated at first but then hugged me back once he realized that it was ok to show his emotions in front of me.
You see A.J as the type that would bottle everything up inside and would go to his room and cry or let his anger out so no-one could see. I let go of him and lifted him up on his feet, he just looked up at me and asked the one question I was dreading
“Teddy is Rachel going to die?” he asked looking up at me for answers. What was I suppose to say to this?, there is a chance that she may not get better, but then there is also the chance she will recover. I looked into his eyes and I knew that I had to lie.
“Rachel is going to be fine, she is not going to die………….. she’ll be around a few more years to annoy us” I said with a small chuckle to help lighten the mood, A.J just looked up to me with a small smile on his face
“come on aje lets go sit over there, I think I better explain a few things” I said as he nodded and as I placed my hands on his shoulders and directed him over to the bbq area where tables and chairs were.
CINDY POV
“Cindy……what’s going to happen now?” Rachel asked. We were now sitting on her bed watching Dora the Explorer- her all time favourite show. I was platting her hair- it always seemed to relax her when people did her hair, and plus she had been begging me to plat her hair since I got there so I suppose now was a good time.
“what do you mean?”
“I mean now that I got cancer……what’s going to happen…am I going to take yucky medicine like I had before when I was sick….coz I don’t want that medicine it was yucky” she said as she stuck out her tongue which made me laugh.
“Rachel I don’t have the answers to your questions…..im sorry. I think that your parents are the best people to ask”
“ok” she simply stated as she returned her attention back to the T.V. I returned to the thoughts that I had before. I don’t think she does understand what is going on, but her parents and only them would be the ones to explain.
“Cindy?” she questioned after a couple of minutes of silence
“yea”
“am I going to die?” this question stopped me dead in my tracks “coz when Miss Sandra had cancer she died” she added on. Miss Sandra was her preschool teacher who had passed away from cancer. I turned her around and looked her in her eyes, they were so innocent and full of love, how could I tell her the truth- I think she had been bombarded with enough today, so all I could do was lie
“of corse your not going to die Rachel, you don’t need to worry about that” I said as I kissed her forehead and she let out a sigh of relief
“promise?” she said. Crap why is she making me promise
“ I promise” I replied back as I held out my pinky and we pinky sweared. She turned back round and started laughing at something that was said on the tv as mentally kicked myself for just promising that.
-Carry On-
TEDDY POV
Me and A.J had somehow made our way from the park to star bucks. We had stayed there for a while whilst I calmed him down and I explained and answered any questions he had. I couldn’t answer all of them, but I told him that he could ask mum and dad when we got home
“come on aje, lets go home. Mum and dad are probably worried and plus Madda and Da and Nan n Pop are at home, and im sure that I saw Nan with a plate of chocolate cupcakes in her hand when I ran out” I said as a smile crept across his face. My Nan’s chocolate cupcakes were my brothers all time favourite food in the world.
“really, did they had that white icing on them?” he questioned as I started laughing
“um im pretty sure that they did” I replied back as he started to speed up his walk.
“well come on then, why are you going so slow” he said trying to hurry me along.
“oh A.J what am I going to do with you” I said as I put my arm around his neck as I pulled him against me an messed up his hair.
“Teddy come on man” he said as he got free of my grip and started fixing his hair. I just laughed as we made our way home.
-Carry On-
It was now around 7.30-8.00 and I was sitting on Teds window sill staring out at the sky, watching the sun slowly disappear and the darkness take over the sky. My mum and I always used to sit in our backyard on a Sunday night and watch the sun go down, so I always watch it now so I can relive the memory. I turned around as I heard the door open to reveal Teddy standing there. He had just been downstairs having a family meeting with his parents and siblings so his parents could explain further to all of them what was going on and what was going to happen, as well as answering any questions. I was asked to join, but I declined- it was a family matter and no matter how many times they had told me I was family, I just felt like I shouldn’t be there- if that makes any sense.
“ how is everyone” I asked Teddy as I sat down on his bed.
“ok I guess………… everything is out in the open now and my parents have explained everything to the best of their ability so we understand” he said as he took of his hoodie and made his way over to the bed, dropping the hoddie on the ground as he did so.
“well that’s good I suppose…..do you know what’s going to happen treatment wise?” I asked
“we don’t know yet. Mum and dad are going to the doctors on Wednesday and he will probably tell them how things are going to span out treatment wise, it most likely will be chemo tho” he replied back as he laid down on the bed and I laid down next to him with my head resting on his chest.
“yea I think that chemo will probably be the main option”
“most likely……………but that means she is going to loose her hair, and get really sick from the chemo…..oh God how am I suppose to handle seeing her like that” Ted replied starting to get upset
“hey…..you will handle it, you just need to tell yourself that it is making her better, and plus ill be here the whole time and so will your family. You will all have to go through it together, and you WILL get through it as a family because you are all so close and love each other. I said as I put my hand on his.
“promise me that you will be there the whole time?” Teddy asked. What was with me and promises today.
“of corse I promise, I will be there every step of the way for both you and your family. I love you guys to much to not be there” I said as Teddy grabbed onto my hand and our fingers interlocked.
“it means so much to hear that……….and just so you know we all love you as well……… especially me” he said as I froze. Did he just say he loved me?
?, I looked up at him as he smiled. He grabbed my face with his free hand and looked deep into my eyes
“I love you” he said. There was so much passion in his voice when he said it that it made me heart melt.
“I..I..love you to” I said back to him as he leaned down and kissed me. It was one of the most passionate moments of my life and it felt so right.
We were broken away from each other by a knock on the door
“Teddy…Cindy….. Just wanted to tell you that we are going to start the movie in about half an hour, so come on down when you are both ready” Teds mum said through the door. Sunday nights was the Geiger’s ‘family night’ which usually consisted of multiple activities, but after the day everyone has had, I think a movie was a great idea so they could all just relax.
“alright mum we will be down soon” Teddy replied back as we could hear her footsteps walking away from the door as Teddy grabbed onto my face again and kissed me again, with no hesitation what so ever form me.
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?, I looked up at him as he smiled. He grabbed my face with his free hand and looked deep into my eyes
