Insecurities and Paralyzing Self-Doubt.

[Ally booo yo [=]

AHH! DEAR GOD! I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE FOREVER. AND I JUST READ THIS WHOLE FANFIC. OHMYGOD. it made me laughhhh. and cryyyyyyyyyy. and FREAK THE FREAK OUT. did that make sense? anyway, I NEED MORE JAMIE. WHO KNEW THIS WOULD COME OUT OF YOU?! HAAHAH CAPS. OKAY. WOW. IM LIKE
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bah. okay. im. done. ohmygod.
HAHAHHAHAA. THAT LOSER IS GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. that loser. cheated on her. wow what a homo. now she needs to be with teddy

[ixheartxrealxverbs]

WHOOO!!!!!

I hope she gets together with Teddy soon.

Ha...so completely random and off topic, but! I just met this kid named Spencer and he looks like Teddy...except he's blonde and uh..... Ha...it's weird.

ANYwho. Update soon because it's amazing.

[curlykt]

I had a feeling that sleeze ball would cheat! grr....now her and Teddy can live happily ever after...but I have a feeling there is gonna be a twist or somethng...lol can't wait for more!

[[[ariane]]]

can i marry your writing?

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^^ Yes you may.
I now pronounce you Jamie's Writing & Wife.
hehe!
I'm about to work on more!!

[Cristina]

omg yes! she finally ended it with spencer!
soooo good!
can't wait to see what happens next.

[Kaylie♥++]

aha yay! amazing chapter! moree? =]

[livelife]

oh my goodness. i couldnt stop reading this. i just just registered because i had to tell you how much i loved this story. its amazing. more please???

[Ally booo yo [=]

JAMIE YOU ARE AMAZING. TWO PEOPLE HAVE REGISTERED TO TELL YOU HOW GOOD THIS FANFIC IS. IFFFF IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. COULD DO THATTTTTTTTTTTTTT. wait no i havent even like writen any of mine for like a month.. so nevermind.. BUT YOU NEED TO WRITE MOREEEE.

[smile♥]

Wow. That is so awesome that you guys joined just because of my fics!
But I also encourage you to read the others as well and share a little bit of that love with some other talented writers... There are some great stories on here, and I'm even a character in one! (oh yeah, i'm cool! haha jk jk)
So yeah... More in a little bit!!

[Carie]

ahh i cant wait!

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"So how about I escort you out to your car?" Riles asked a month later. "Just so you don't get, like... Mugged or anything."

"Riles... This is a small town. If anything was to happen, I'm sure I'd be ok." I told him.

"But that guy robbed some chick last night." He said defensively. "I just don't want you to get hurt or anything."

I shook my head. "I'll be ok."

"Well, I'm leaving anyway." He said and stood up. I rolled my eyes as we left, saying by to Hank on the way out.

"Well, looks like we're here." I said as I stood next to my Grandmother's Impala. "Thank you for the security."

He nodded. "Not a problem."

We stood there in an awkward silence for a minute before either of us said anything. "So I'm going now."

"Yeah, yeah. Ok. See ya."

I waved as I started up the car and kicked my flip flops off. "Bye."

I had a feeling Riles was developing a thing for me.

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"Hey Gran," I said as I came down the stairs from my bedroom. "Do you care if I decorate my room a little?"

She shook her head. "Not at all. What are you planning on doing?"

"Dark brown walls with this really nice comforter I bought out at the mall the other day," I told her and she nodded.

"I'll be back in a little bit, ok?"

"Ok. I'll be outside in the yard all day." She informed me and I told her goodbye as I headed to the hardware store.

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"Well, well, well. Look who it is." I heard some say from behind me and I turned to see Riles wearing a read apron that read 'Henry Hardware Store'.

"I didn't know you worked here." I didn't even know he had a job, come to think of it.

He nodded and smiled. "I sure do. So what can I help you with today?"

"Well, I was looking for some paint."

"Oh, I see." He nodded. "And what color would you like?" He asked as we walked to the paint isle.

I pointed to a chocolate brown. "That one."

"That sure is dark."

"I nodded. Dark is good." I said as I picked it up and headed to the counter.

"Well guess what? You're in luck! I'm working the paint department today."

I laughed at his cheesiness as I told him I need two gallons of the dark paint.

"Thanks." I said after it had been properly mixed. "I didn't grab a buggy. Do you think you can help me get some paintbrushes and stuff and carry it to the register for me?"

He smiled and agreed as we headed down the isles and made our way out. "I'll see you tomorrow night." He said, referring to the bar.

I nodded. "Adios."

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When I pulled in my driveway, I noticed a ladder propped up against the side of the house, as well as a spilled bucket of warm, soapy water. I headed inside quickly to see what was going on.

"Gran?!"

"I'm in here." She called back and I headed to her room where she was lying with her leg propped up on a pillow.

"Are you ok?" I asked. "I saw the stuff outside and I wasn't sure."

She nodded. "My ankle's just a little sore. My wrist is what's really killing me. I took a Tylenol, so I should be ok."

I raised my eyebrows unsurely. "I think you might need to go to the hospital."

She shook her head. "No no. I'll be ok."

I sighed. "Ok. But if you're still in pain in the morning, you're going to the hospital."

She nodded and agreed, and I headed up to my room to start painting my new bedroom.

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"Gran! You heard what the doctors said!" I called up the stairs as I heard her shuffling around her room. She had a sprained wrist and ankle, but the doctor said she should stay off both of them for a while.

"And when did you become my doctor?" She asked as she revealed herself in the doorway of the kitchen. "I know myself, and I'm ok. Now what are you doing today?"

"Tallie and Jerome are here to visit," I said. "I have to go pick them up from the airport. I think I'll be back around one."

She nodded. "Ok. Have fun. I can't wait to meet them."

I had wished Teddy had came, but when Tallie said it was just her and Jerome, I was still glad to see at least two of my best friends.

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"Bailey!" Tallie cried as she ran towards me and wrapped her arms tightly around my neck.

We separated and I laughed as Jerome mimicked her actions.

"So I thought I would take you guys to the house, and then we'll get ready, and I'll take you to Taylor's..." I said, remembering I had asked off for their first night here. "It's just a bar... So I thought I'd just show it to you, introduce you to Willa and Riles... Oh! And Hank, then we can get something to eat."

"Sounds like a plan!" Jerome said excitedly as he clapped his hands together. We made our way to the baggage claim and then went home.

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"Bailey there's a strange guy at your door!" I heard Tallie call up the stairs.

"Well what does he look like?" I called back as I threw on my shirt and pants.

"Ummm... Drake Bell?" She laughed at herself.

"Let him in." I sighed as I stood in the middle of the living room with my dripping wet hair as she opened the door. "Riles!" I called as he stepped in. "Guys, this is my stalker."

"I'm not stalking you."

"You're at my work every night." I said.

"I was going there long before you got a job there." He laughed and I ruffled his hair as he stood next to me. "So who are these two... Peeps?"

I gave him a weird look and then introduced my friends. Tallie shot a wink my direction, signalling her approval, and I rolled my eyes. Riles and I didn't even see each other as significant others.

"Hey! He should eat with us!" Jerome suggested, to which Tallie also agreed, which meant he was coming.

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After a night of tours and food, all they could talk about was Riles and how awesome they thought he was.

"So who are you seeing now?" Tallie asked, trying to prod information out of me.

"No one," I said as I drove the streets of my town to my house.

"Yeah right," Jerome said. "I saw how you two were tonight. You guys have to be dating."

I shook my head. "Not hardly. See, he just had his fiance die in this really bad accident."

Tallie immediately butted in, "So?! He's totally looking for someone exactly like you! I could see it. Everytime he looked at you, he was like adoring you. I haven't seen anyone do that since Ted."

I was quiet. Just that name was enough to send me straight into my mental photo album of every moment we had ever shared. I wished I had given him more of a chance instead of moving straight to Seth Riggins and then realizing it was Ted when it was too late.

"Oh stop!" Tallie and Jerome both screamed at the same time, and I slammed on my brakes as I looked at the road to see Monster, my Grandmother's solid black German Shepherd sitting there.

"What the..?" I said as I got out and walked to him. He licked my hand, and followed me back to the car, where he hopped in the back seat next to Jerome.

"You know... this dog looks like that dog on The Omen. It's quiet scary to me. I think I might pass out here in a minute."

"Stop wining you big baby!" I laughed as we pulled into my driveway and we all went inside.

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"So what's going on with you?" Tallie asked as we laid on my bed while Jerome took a shower.

"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.

"It's obvious that you've lost some weight, and Spencer's out... Riles may be in? I mentioned Ted's name tonight and you completely zone out and almost hit Gran's dog," She reminded me.

"I'm fine." I said as I rolled my eyes. "I've just been doing more exercise. I like to go on walks through the woods with Monster sometimes. And Ted is Ted... You know... I can't not be that way when I think of him."

She nodded. "Yeah. It's completely understandable."

"So where is Ted?" I asked curiously. "What's he up to?"

She shrugged her shoulders. "I'm not really sure. We see him all the time, but he's really quiet, ya know? He's Ted, I guess. There's really no way to describe him, I guess."

"So when are you guys leaving?"

"Umm.. I think Monday morning." She said. "I had to get back to type my review of, like, five CDs."

I nodded and laughed. "That's cool. I start school in a few days. I want it to be done already."

"Oh! Ted said he was moving!" She said suddenly. "I'm not sure why, I guess he just figures he needs a change too."

I nodded. "Someone else leaving New York."

"Yeah." She said sadly.

"I'm sorry I left." I said. "I'm sorry I can't come back now. I'm sorry I love it here so much. I'm just sorry."

"No, no, no!" She laughed at me as she wrapped her arms around my neck. "It's so totally ok. I'm glad you're happy living here. I'm glad you've figured out who you are."

I smiled. "I guess I have, haven't I?"

"You totally have." She smiled at me as she stood up. "But for now, I'm going to bed. I'll see you in the morning."

As much as I wanted sleep that night, I didn't get any. I was too busy thinking about Ted. I knew who I was, and I knew I wanted to call him... But I was still just a silly, scared little girl.

[Carie]

awww she has to call him like now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love it!!!
more?!

[Kourtni]

aww, loved it.
more?

[[[ariane]]]

awwwe.
teddy needs to come back into the picture really soon.
dont get me wrong i like riles and all but she needs teddy.