Punk Rock Princess

[hesonmymind]

awww
i loved that chapter

but the whole thing about holding hands makes perfect sense, i never thought about hands and holding hands in that way b4

but i kinda feel sorry 4 Andy, he's gunna get a tad hurt

post more soon

[jessb]

Chapter 20

“Yo, talk to me.”

“Hey Teddy, how’s it going?”

“Good I guess… and you?”

“I’ve got some news for you.”

“Good news? Or bad news? Is it about you and Andy? Are you dating now or something?”

“No way… it’s not about that at all. It’s about your song. I absolutely loved it. But you never said what it was called.”

“You did? Oh uh, it’s called Our Eyes.”

“Completely loved it. It’s amazing… whoever you wrote it about is a really lucky girl that you think that of her. Speaking of… who is it about? Do I know her?”

“Yeah you know her… but I’d rather not tell you yet, I’d rather make you wait… just because I know how much you can’t stand it. I really need to ask you something though.”

“Okay, what is it?”

“You still owe me a dance… so how does tomorrow sound?”

“Tomorrow?”

“Yeah tomorrow… what do you have plans with Andy already?”

“Nope I don’t. Tomorrow sounds fine with me… what time were you thinking?”

“Um… how about after lunch… say one o’clock? Is that okay?”

“Yep that’s cool. I’ll see you then.”

“Why are you in such a rush to hang up on me?” Teddy said suddenly.

“I assumed you had things to do…”

“Nah… can’t two friends just talk for a bit?”

“Sure… why not. So what do you want to talk about?”

“You.”

“Uh, what about me? And why can’t we talk about you.”

“I wanna talk about you first. Tell me about your date.”

“You didn’t seem too excited when I told you I was going on it… why are you so excited to hear about it all of the sudden?”

“Well, I hope I didn’t ruin anything by calling you in the middle of it.”

“No you didn’t… we just ended up talking about you for the rest of dinner, that’s all.”

“You were talking about me on a date with someone else? Hmm… interesting.”

“What is that supposed to mean… hmm interesting?”

“It doesn’t mean anything… so what do you think of him?”

“Well, he’s a nice guy… but I don’t think I could ever be his girlfriend, if that’s what you’re asking. I just feel more of a friendship towards him than there being a chance for something more.”

“Oh really,” he said. I almost thought he sounded happy when he said that. That threw me off a bit, but I tried to forget it.

“Yeah, plus our hands don’t fit.”

“Your hands don’t what?”

“Fit… you know…”

“Actually I don’t… care to clue me in?”

“Well, you know when you really like someone and you hold hands with them as you’re walking or whatever,” I started.

“Yeah, oh I get it… your hands have to feel comfy,” he said with a laugh.

“It’s not funny… I’m totally serious. Well Andy grabbed my hand tonight and they just didn’t feel right. And I want our hands to fit if I’m gonna be holding hands with this person a lot.”

“I guess that makes sense… so you let him hold hands with you? Wow, someone’s moving fast. I know how you are about hand holding… it’s personal, blah blah blah.”

“Well it is… and I don’t wanna talk about Andy’s hands anymore,” I said with a laugh.

“Oh alright… I was getting sick of talking about him anyway,” I could almost hear him smile as we began talking about other things.

His mood seemed to pick up from that point, as we talked about anything and everything. We talked a lot about music, mostly my brother’s. Teddy wanted to hear the CD Chris put out when he was living in California, so I told him when he came over he could borrow it. Then we talked about Teddy’s career and how great of an opportunity it would be for him to leave after our senior year to make his album.

“Well, it’s getting pretty late… do you think we should stop talking for now?”

“Nah, it’s only five in the morning… and we’ve only been talking for oh… whoa.”

“What? Teddy… it’s five in the morning?!?”

“Yeah, well we’ve been talking since 7… that’s what… 10 hours? Wow… but what’s a few more huh?”

“You’re probably right, but I’m really starting to get tired,” I said with a yawn. “And I still wish you would tell me who that song is about… because I’ve been thinking for awhile and you said I know her… but I can’t figure out who… unless it’s Jade. But that doesn’t make sense because you’re already dating her…”

“And you’re rambling again.”

“Yeah I know… sorry.”

“Don’t apologize… it’s cute. I like it when you ramble,” Teddy said sweetly.

“Okay… so what should we talk about for the next… oh I don’t know, few hours?”

“Since I refuse to tell you who the song is about until I see you… this afternoon?”

“Yeah,” I said with a laugh.

Teddy and I talked about random things… whatever crossed our minds for awhile. Then I decided to bring up a topic I was very interested in hearing about, considering Teddy’s reaction to my date with Andy.

“Yeah, so… how are things with your girlfriend? I bet she wouldn’t be too happy about you being on the phone with me for this long.”

“Yeah, her and our parents both… all these minutes we’re wasting… but trust me… it’s sooo worth it.”

“Oh well we’re on the same wireless network aren’t we? So we get free mobile to mobile minutes… we’re golden.”

“Yeah golden,” he said with a laugh. “And speaking of Jade… there’s something I need to tell you.”

“Okay… spill it. You know I hate it when people don’t just come right out and say something. It’s like… just tell me already,” I said, laughing.

“Yeah I know… you’d suck at playing charades,” he chuckled. “Anyways, I broke up with her…… on Saturday.”

“WHAT?! Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I wasn’t ready to. But now I am… so yeah.”

“Wow… I don’t know what to say.”

“I do… it needed to be done and we both know it. I feel so free now, it’s crazy. But I’ve gotta work some other stuff out now…”

“Well… it’s your life Ted. I’m not gonna tell you what to do. I’m glad you feel better, but what sort of other stuff do you have to work out?”

“Oh, you’ll find out soon enough. For now I think we should get some sleep. After all, I’m gonna see you in oh… five hours.”

“Alright, sleep is a very good thing, I must agree. Good night Teddy,” I said, yawning.

“More like good morning. See ya soon Ayerplane,” he replied.

We hung up and went to bed. I couldn’t really sleep, knowing that Teddy had broken up with Jade. That made me even more suspicious of the way he had acted about my date with Andy. Was he going to try to start something with me? I hoped not… I’m not ready for anything with him yet… or maybe I am. I hate not knowing what to do. Oh well, I’ll figure it all out tomorrow I guess. Until then I really need to go to sleep so I don’t look terrible when Teddy comes over later today.

[smile♥]

EEE!!!
That was so cute!
I don't think I've ever talked to somebody for 5 hours on the telephone...

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[ohhh ashley]

You make me realllly want a relationship.
It all sounds so cute :].

[possibilities909]

the only thing i dont like about fanfics is having to wait...

[teddyownsmyheart]

OHHH! they talked on the phone for like how long was it 10 hours or something oh my god wow but that was so cute aww i so wonna be jessica teheh Oh i wonna read more now every time i see a new chapter of this story i get realy excited!!!!

[jessb]

awww thanks for the comments guys!
i get off work today at 2pm so i'll post more once i get back home

[jmlove]

i love this<3
cant waittt for more =]

[jessb]

Chapter 21

Before I knew it my alarm was going off. It was already 11… I was in no shape to get out of bed. I’d only gotten two hours of sleep. Once I hung up with Teddy, it was another hour before I was able to fall asleep. I only hoped Teddy couldn’t tell how much I’d been stressing out about him coming over.

Last night I decided that it was finally time to tell Teddy that we can only be friends, even though he doesn’t have a girlfriend anymore. He said it himself… he finally feels free. I just can’t wait around for him to be ready for a relationship anymore. Plus he won’t ever feel about me the way I feel about him… and I’ve just got to accept that. I’ve decided to just wait and not try to push a relationship with anyone, including Andy, even though he is a really great guy. I’d just go along with whatever happened between the two of us.

After rushing around to get ready before Teddy came over, it was finally one o’clock. I was so nervous sitting in the living room waiting on him. I really hope he doesn’t want to stop being friends once I tell him how hard I had fallen for him before we became friends. I’d just have to wait and see I guess. I’ve given up trying to figure out how Teddy will react to things.

At a few minutes after one, the doorbell rang. I nervously walked over to the door and opened it to find Teddy on the other side with a big smile on his face.

“Hey Ted,” I said with a small smile.

“Why hello there,” he said, immediately going in for a hug.

I pulled away, almost too quickly and stood there not saying anything.

“What’s wrong? You aren’t acting like yourself today.”

“There’s just some things I want to talk to you about is all.”

“Can I come in then?”

“Oh sure, sorry,” I said, moving out of the doorway and letting him come inside.

“It’s all good. Look,” he said, holding up a CD. “I brought the tune that you must, and I repeat must, dance to,” he said, laughing.

“I know, I know… and here’s that CD of Chris’s that you wanted to borrow…" I said as I reached for the CD. "So do you wanna head downstairs so we can use that stereo? It’s got the best sound of any system in the house.”

“Sounds good… let’s go.”

As we walked down the stairs, my nervousness seemed to grow even worse, even though I’m pretty sure it was already as bad as it could get. When we finally reached the room, I walked over to put the CD in the stereo, and Teddy just stood there.

I put the CD in, but didn’t push play. “Teddy,” I said.

“Yeah,” he said, questioningly.

“Can we talk first?”

“Nope, you’re not getting out of this one. Now put it on number nine and come over here. This isn’t really a song you can dance to by yourself, so get your feet moving this way,” he said, holding out his hands.

I shook my head, pushed play, and slowly walked over to him. I recognized the song almost instantly. It was Teddy’s favorite song… ‘Selfless, Cold, and Composed’ by Ben Folds Five. It was definitely a song that you could only slow dance to.

He wrapped his arms around me like we were hugging, and started to sway back and forth. I laid my head on his chest and began to move along with the music as well. Halfway through the song, he started to pull away. I looked up at him and he smiled.

“Jess, there’s something I need to tell you,” he said as he grabbed my hands.

We stood there face to face holding each other’s hands. The only thing on my mind was the fact that as I looked down at our hands, they felt unusually comfortable. They fit, and that’s all there was to it. Then I looked up into those piercing blue eyes of his. He stared right back into mine.

“What is it?” I said quietly.

“I think… well, I know that I uh…”

“You know what? Tell me already…”

“It’s kinda hard for me to say how I feel, but uh… the song… ‘Our Eyes,’ it’s about you… and it basically sums up how I feel about you. I like you… a lot.”

I didn’t know what to say, as tears began to form in my eyes.

“Why are you crying? Is it a good thing or a bad thing? You’ve gotta let me…” he started, but was interrupted.

I leaned up and kissed him softly on the lips. He seemed stunned at first, and then leaned in for another kiss, but I stopped him.

“Teddy, you have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for you to say that.”

“Then what’s the problem?”

“I was ready for this a long time ago, and you weren’t. Now that you are ready for something between us, I’m not sure that I am anymore.”

“I don’t understand, why…” he started, but I stopped him.

“Let me get this out, then you can say whatever you need to,” I said softly. “I’ve had these intense feelings for you, but you never wanted to give them back to me, and I learned to deal with that. I put my feelings aside, because you had a girlfriend and you were happy with her. Now that you don’t have her anymore… I don’t want you to rush into anything with me, and I feel like this would be rushing things… You said it yourself that you’ve never felt so free before. I don’t want to ruin that for you. I just want you to know that I could not even begin to tell you what I feel about you, but I think it’s best if we just stay friends for right now.”

“I see… just for the record, I don’t agree. If you really loved me you’d want this as much as I do.”

“I do want this, or I thought I did… I just can’t put myself out there all the time… and when you get nervous when people see us together in public, it hurts. I don’t think we could ever be anything more than friends until you can get over that. I just wish you’d act around other people the way you act when it’s just the two of us.”

“I can get over it, I promise.”

“Until you show me, I can’t… I’m sorry.”

“Then you’d better be prepared to be stunned, because it’s gonna happen,” he said with a tiny smile.

“I think you’d better go… that’d be best.”

“Alright I will, but can I do one thing first?”

“What’s that?” I asked, as he leaned towards me and gave me a gentle hug. I expected that, but he caught me off guard as he kissed me once more and then pulled away. He winked as he walked up the stairs.

“I’ll see you soon Ayerplane.”

I sat down on the couch in our basement in shock. Had I really just been brave enough to say that? And did Teddy and I really just kiss… twice? Or was it all a dream?

That had to be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my entire life. I wanted so badly to give in to him, but I have to stand by what I think is right… and the way he acts around me when we’re with other people is definitely not right. I am curious as to how he’s going to prove me wrong though.

[jmlove]

"we were dancing to Ben Folds Five in your mothers basement, and you kissed me"
hah
I loved it, I can't wait to see how he is gonna prove it to her
more soonnnn =]

[Kourtni]

awww, i loved it!
cannot wait to read more.

[[[ariane]]]

YOU ARE AMAZING.
they are so cuteeee.

[ohhh ashley]

this is so good.
i loveee it!

[teddyownsmyheart]

AWWW THAT WAS SO BLODDY CUTE OMGGGGG!!!!!! OH THAT WAS THE BEST CHAPTER EVER TEDDYS SO CUTE oh i wonna see how he proves it!!! oh i love, love, love, love this story!

[jessb]

Chapter 22

Two weeks had passed, and I had only gone out with Andy once more. We both agreed that we were better off as friends, but it was still nice to go out and do things together. I hadn’t really talked to Teddy much since that day in my basement. Sure, we talked online, but it wasn’t about anything in particular. It was just friendly conversation… all I told him I could commit to right now.

We didn’t see each other, because that would be too hard for me, and he understood that. I tried my best not to stare out my window into his, but I caught myself doing it a couple times. I figured Teddy had been doing the same, because every once in awhile my eyes would wander around my room and I know I saw him standing at his window. When I did notice it, I usually walked over and closed my curtains.

He had to understand how hard it was for me to do this… and I’d like to think it wasn’t any easier for him either. But with Teddy, you never can tell.

I was sitting in my room listening to a new Plain White T’s mix CD I had made a couple days before, when the song ‘A Lonely September’ came on. I instantly thought of Teddy when I heard it… it practically described our relationship perfectly… well except for the part about the holidays. I can’t say I’ve ever spent the holidays with Teddy.

‘I’m sitting here all by myself
Just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything just to keep my from thinking of you
But you know it’s not working out
Cuz you’re all that’s on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

I didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn’t mean to get so close
And share what we did
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did

I’m sitting here trying to convince myself
That you’re not the one for me
But the more I think
The less I believe
And then the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don’t wanna spend ‘em alone
Memories of Christmastime with you
Will just kill me if I’m on my own

And I didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn’t mean to get so close
And share what we did
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn’t mean to love me back

I know it’s not the smartest thing to do
We just can’t seem to get it right
But what I wouldn’t give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I’m sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it’s not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please baby, won’t you take my hand
We’ve got nothing left to prove

And I didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn’t mean to get so close
And share what we did
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn’t mean to meet you then, when we were just kids
And I didn’t mean to give you chills, the way that I kissed
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn’t mean to love me back but I know you did
Don’t say you didn’t love me back cuz you know you did
No you didn’t mean to love me back, but you did’

As the song was ending, my cell phone started to ring. My heart suddenly turned into a gymnast, flipping and flopping until I realized it was only Zealand calling, and not Teddy. I took a deep breath as I calmed down and answered.

“Hey Zealand, what’s up?”

“Do you know what tonight is?”

“Uh, we’re going to the coffee shop later… you, me, Michael, and Andy. Other than that, I have no idea.”

“Tonight is open mic night at the very place we’re going… how ironic is that?”

“What are you trying to say? Do you think I should perform something?”

“I’m just saying… if you want to make it big someday, you’ve gotta start getting your name out there.”

“Oh alright, I’ll do it. I don’t think I wanna sing any of my songs yet though, do you think it’d be bad if I saved those for the next time?”

“I’m sure that’d be cool… heck maybe they’d let you sing more than one if everyone likes the way you sound. Then you could sing one of yours too.”

“Oh, that’s a really good idea. I have the perfect song too… so what time are we heading over there?”

“We’ll come pick you up at 7… sound good?”

“Sounds like a plan. I’ll see you then.”

“Bye Jess, see ya soon. Oh, and I’ll call the coffee shop about you performing… don’t you worry about a thing,” she said as we both hung up.

Zealand’s aunt and uncle owned the coffee shop we were going to, so she knew exactly who to call about signing me up to sing.

It was already 4pm and I desperately needed to practice the song I planned on playing tonight. The nervousness was definitely there… and it was most definitely not going anywhere. I’d just have to try to stay excited rather than nervous and everything would work out fine.

Zealand’s POV

As soon as I hung up with Jessica, I immediately called Teddy right back, like I told him I would.

“Hey Zealand, please tell me you have good news.”

“It’s all set… she’s gonna play a song too I think… so we’ll make sure that you’re up after her… because if she knew you were there she would probably just leave.”

“Yeah I know… and Mike and Andy… they know about it too?”

“Yeah, they both know and they’re all set to play along. So have you finished the song then?”

“Yeah, I finished the last little details last night. She’s gonna love it… at least I think she will…”

“Oh, I’m sure she will. You know she really likes you Ted, so she’d love anything that you wrote… especially if it was written for her. After you wrote that song about eyes or whatever it was called, that’s all she talked about for a week straight.”

“Really? I knew she liked it, but after what she said to me a couple weeks ago, I thought she’d try and forget about it.”

“Are you kidding? It’s all she listens to on her iPod… it’s kind of pathetic actually. She’ll sit there and listen to it and cry… it’s about time we get her in a better mood, and tonight is just the thing to do it, I can feel it.”

“Alright, well Chris told me he was gonna be there earlier tonight, so he’s gonna call me when you guys get there so I know when to stay hidden for awhile. He did say he wasn’t going to stay, so don’t bother looking for him. But I’ll just hang out in the back until she’s done performing. Does that sound alright with you?”

“Yeah, I’ll let my aunt know when I call about Jess performing. She already knows that you’re performing, right?”

“Yep, it’s all set up. Just let her know to put Jess on right before me and we should be all set.”

“Awesome, I’ll definitely do that. Talk to ya soon Teddy,” I said happily.

“Sure thing, see ya tonight,” Teddy replied as we both hung up.

Jessica had no idea what was coming her way… and I sincerely hoped it’d lift her mood when she realized Teddy was ready to put himself out there for everyone to see. He had written her a song and he said it was great… I was sure it would be because he’s an amazing songwriter… well according to Chris he is… I’ve never heard any other song besides the one Jess played for me last week… the one he wrote for her called ‘Our Eyes.’ Anyway… she couldn’t deny him any longer when she heard the song he was gonna play. Chris called it a ‘declaration of love’ if he ever heard one. I was pumped for tonight to go down. It was gonna be amazing. I called my aunt and got everything worked out for tonight, finished getting ready, then got into my car to go over to Jessica’s place.

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I heard the doorbell ring as I realized it was Zealand. She was here an hour early… she must’ve told Mike and Andy to pick us up at my place. She probably knew how nervous I was and wanted to help me get over it… I could always count on her to calm me down at times like this.

“I’m so glad you’re here,” I said as I opened the door to let her in.

“Yeah I can tell… I figured I take a listen to that song you’re gonna sing before we go tonight. Just to make sure you’ve got all the kinks worked out.”

“Thank you so much… you’re really an amazing best friend, ya know that?”

“Of course I do,” she said, laughing. “Especially when you remind me every time I see you.”

“Alright, alright… well I’m just about finished getting ready, then I’ll sing the song for ya.”

“Alright, I’ll just wait in your room then.”

10 Minutes Later

I was finished getting ready and walked into my room to find Zealand talking on her cell phone.

“Yep, just pick us both up at her place. Alright see ya soon, bye babe.”

“Michael?” I asked, knowing it was him all along.

“Yep, I was just telling him to pick us both up here instead of picking me up at my place. So let’s hear this song since you’re all ready… and you look awesome, by the way.”

“Thanks… I wanna look good for my musical debut,” I laughed.


I played the song for Zealand and all she did was smile. “I wonder who that’s about,” she laughed.

“Is it that obvious that it’s for him?”

“Yeah, but it’s not like he’s gonna be there… so you’re fine. No one will know except your three friends… and we’re not saying anything because we’re only there to cheer you on.”

“You’re right. Okay… oh geez, do you hear that?”

“Sounds like the boys are here. Let’s go Jess… you’re gonna be amazing.”

“I sure hope so,” I said nervously.