Punk Rock Princess

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Errr... you cut things off so fast.

Hehe, but I guess it wouldn't be so supsenseful if you didn't

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[jmlove]

ah i love this
more soon!

[chloe]

omg please continue i need more
this story is ridicuosly awesome and i absolutly love it

update please

[jessb]

Chapter 15

“Hello.”

“Hurry up Geiger… your time is limited,” I stated bluntly.

“Oh hey Jessica. So I just really wanted to apologize for what happened earlier today.”

“Yeah you said that in the voicemail. I guess I just don’t understand why you act that way around her and I, when you told me how you feel about her… or I guess how you don’t feel about her.”

“I know, but it’s hard to explain. I don’t know if I even understand it. But, I just can’t break up with her. Oh, but there is something else I wanted to say.”

“Out with it then,” I replied sadly.

“You still owe me ice cream,” he said happily.

“Yeah I know. You wanna go do it soon so I don’t have to be indebted to you for much longer?”

“I was thinking Friday night. What do you say?”

“Friday’s fine. What time do you want to go?”

“Well, I was thinking around 6? Does that sound good to you?” Teddy replied.

“Yeah, sounds good. I’ll just be out on my porch around then and you can come over and get me.”

“Alright. See ya in a couple days then,” he said with a grin.

“Yeah whatever,” I replied.

I hung up my phone and sighed.

I really didn’t want to ever see him again, but I couldn’t disagree that I did still owe him ice cream, as well as a dance. I’m never one to go back on my word to others, so there was no way for me to get out of the little ice cream date. I just hoped that by the time Friday rolled around I didn’t despise him as much, and could drag myself though the ice cream date that I was sure I wasn’t going to enjoy.

The next few days seemed to fly by, and my ice cream date with Teddy was approaching faster and faster, and to say I was excited was the overstatement of the century. Before I knew it, it was Friday night and I was getting ready to go out.

Even though I wasn’t excited about going, I still decided to wear the new outfit I had gotten for the very purpose of this date. As I sat on my front porch waiting for him, a million thoughts were running through my head. I knew what I had to do. I wanted him to realize what a huge mistake he had made for acting the way he did towards me… but was this the right way to go about it?

Oh well, I’ll just have to deal with things as they came along and that’s all there is to it. Tonight should be interesting though…

“Hey Jess!” I heard Teddy shout from his front porch. “You wanna just come over here and I’ll drive us to the ice cream shop?”

“Sure,” I said quietly as I got up and walked over to his car.

He was wearing a nice pair of jeans and a dress shirt over a t-shirt. I was glad he had dressed up a little, since I was wearing a summery dress, and didn’t want to feel like I was trying more than he was.

The car ride over to the ice cream shop was awkward, to say the least. We didn’t really say much to each other the whole way there. Thank goodness he had the radio on, because if there hadn’t been music, it would have been silence the whole way.

“Looks like we’re here,” he said hopefully.

“Sure does,” I replied.

“Okay Jess, I don’t want this to be unbearably awkward. Can you please just give me a chance to explain?”

“I already know your reasons, and it still hurts, that’s all.”

“Well, I’m fully ready to make it up to you,” he said with a smile. “If it takes endless hours of dance offs and ice cream sundaes then I’m willing to put in the time.”

I couldn’t help but smile after that comment. “Alright, I’ll try to act like myself tonight. But just think about what it’s like to be on my side of the situation.”

“Oh trust me, it won’t happen again. Now let’s go inside and get that monster of an ice cream that you owe me,” he said with a wink.

As we walked inside, I began to feel a little more at ease, and decided that everyone deserves a second chance, right?

The ice cream and conversation was amazing… not at all what I expected it to be. Talking to Teddy again was nice. It was like he was back to that guy that I talked with forever the other day in his backyard… and I must say, I liked it. Now if only he’d act this way all the time… even around other people.

“Aww, is the little Tedster full?” I said with a chuckle.

“I can’t do it… too… much… sugar…” he replied.

“And I thought you’d be all geared up for that ‘monster’ of an ice cream you kept talking about. Looks like you’re weaker than I thought,” I said, smiling.

“Well, it’s not like you had even half of what I ate.”

“True, guess that makes me the smart one huh?” I laughed.

“Sadly… maybe. But I’d never admit that,” he said with a grin.

“You about ready to head out, or do you want more time to work on that mountain of dessert still in your bowl hmm?”

“Yeah, I’m ready to go. If I even try to move my arm towards my face one more time I may be sick,” he said, grabbing his stomach. “Let’s get outta here.”

“Okay then, let’s head out.”

As we were riding back home in his car, I felt more at ease with him than I ever had before. I rolled down the window and just listened to the sounds of the world moving around us. Teddy didn’t seem to mind, and rolled down his window too. He turned up the radio and we just sat there in that comfortable silence that close friends can share. Then ‘Passenger Seat’ by Stephen Speaks came on the radio and it made me smile. I secretly hoped Teddy was listening to the song and thinking about me… but I knew he probably wasn’t.

‘I look at her and have to smile
As we go driving for awhile
Her hair blowing in the open window of my car
And as we go, the traffic lights
I watch them glimmer in her eyes
In the darkness of the evening

And I’ve got all that I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can’t keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she’s inches from me’

I looked over at him and smiled, and he returned the gesture. I can only imagine what he was thinking. It made me wonder… considering he was grinning like he’d just won the lottery or something. Then, he turned and looked out his window.

“Oh crap…” he suddenly said.

“What is it?” I asked.

“I just saw Jade sitting outside her house… and I’m pretty sure she saw us both in here.”

“So? We’re just friends remember?”

“I don’t think she’ll see it that way… even if we are just friends.”

“So you’re embarrassed to be seen with me, is that it?”

“Uh… well… at least by Jade I am. But give it time… I’m sure I’ll come out of it,” he smirked.

“That’s just it… I don’t think I can wait,” I whispered to myself. “Just take me home, okay Teddy?”

“Sure thing.”

Teddy insisted on walking me to my door, so I let him.

“So tonight was really fun.”

“Yeah,” I replied quietly.

“See ya around Ayerplane, and remember, you still owe me that dance,” he said with a grin.

“Yeah, yeah I know. Later Tedster, have a nice night,” I replied as I walked inside and left him standing on my porch.

Oh what an interesting night it was…

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If it were me, I'd be SO mad at him for telling me he was embarassed to be around me with Jade...

But anyway!! MORE MORE MORE

[ohhh ashley]

i'm so confussed on that kid.
goodness.
very gooood :].

[curlykt]

goodness.....that boy is simply messed up...and he can't hold his ice cream! lol great update! I can't wait for more!!

[chloe]

wow talk about confusion, that kid is all over the place, but i hope he finds himself soon
but i wonder whats goign to happen with jade now that she has seen them 2gether

i need more update asap please

[M!chelle]

good grief that kid is confusing?
Cant wait for more

[jmlove]

ohh jeezumm teddy. get your act togetherrr man
hah this is amazing and addictive. so more soon. please =]

[Kourtni]

teddy is soooo confusing, but i love it because that makes the story that much more interesting. it's simply amazing. you're great at this! cannot wait for more!

[ohhh ashley]

moreeee :]?

[jamie_b]

more more more!!!!! (please)

[jessb]

Chapter 16

I felt very disappointed as I walked inside my house to find Chris yet again sitting in the living room with all his notebooks and guitar spread out across the couch.

I wasn’t just disappointed, I was furious that Teddy had acted that way tonight and said what he did about Jade seeing us… right after everything had been getting better. I’m not one to take my anger out on other people, so I tried to hide it from Chris when I came inside.

As he looked up at me, he instantly knew something had happened. He started to ask what was wrong, but must have decided against it, because he just sighed and smiled.

“So you wanna hear this new tune I’ve been working on?”

“Sure,” I replied sadly.

“Cheer up sis, as bad as it seems now, I’m sure it’s not really that bad. And if it is, it can only get better.”

“Aww thanks Chris. But I’m pretty sure it’s just going to end… there’s no getting better or worse. Just getting over. But I really don’t wanna talk about it… bring on the song,” I said with a tiny smile.

“Okay, its working title is Shadows, but I can’t decide how I want to end it.”

“Well let me hear it and maybe I can come up with a better suggestion.”

“It’s just I have two different endings and I can’t choose which one I like better. They’re both too good to choose one over the other.”

“Maybe you should just call it Shadows parts one and two, and then sing both parts. That way no one can say you were indecisive and chose to sing it two different ways,” I said with a smile.

“I knew there was a reason I kept you around,” he winked.

“So what’s it about? Give me the basic storyline.”

“Okay, so you know how you try and tell someone something politely and calmly but they just won’t listen? So you just get really angry and practically scream it at them because they just don’t get it? Well it’s kinda like that… basically it’s about two people who had a relationship that from the outside appears to be going great. They shared some great memories but the world around them was just too much for them to handle, and they had to end things because they couldn’t commit more to the relationship. And basically the guy wants things to go back to the way they were, but the girl just won’t listen to what the guy has to say, because she’s too concerned with herself and her problems.”

“Wow, so who’s the unlucky girl?” I laughed.

“Oh it’s not about me, it’s about one of my very close friends who’s going through some really rough times with someone else who just doesn’t get where she’s coming from… if you catch my drift.”

“Are you trying to say you wrote it about me and Teddy? Because we’re not in a relationship by any means… and after tonight, I’m not too sure there’s even a friendship left.”

“Hey, friendship definitely qualifies as a relationship… and I have to admit you’re right, it is about you, but I did have to make some of it up. Although after tonight, it may be more realistically true than I had thought.”

“Oh geez, so how do you know the whole Teddy situation anyway?”

“Well, you talk pretty loud when you’re on the phone… I kinda overhead you talking to Zealand and I know the whole story. I’m really sorry to be a snoop, but I needed inspiration and I figured there had to be some sort of high school drama I could hear about from you and your conversations with your friends. Plus, the mood that you walked into the room with tonight tells me even more how complicated things are between you two.”

“Well this song had better be good, otherwise I’m not gonna be your inspiration for any more songs okay buddy?”

“Sure thing, but I’m almost positive you’re gonna love it. Oh, and I had to reverse it because I couldn’t sing from the girl’s perspective,” he laughed. “So when you listen, picture yourself in the guy’s situation and Teddy as the girl, okay?”

“I guess, but I’d rather not picture Teddy as a girl,” I grinned.

“Oh you know what I meant, Teddy in place of the girl and you in place of the boy,” he smiled.

“Alright, out with it then superstar,” I said cheerfully.

He began to strum his guitar quietly, and I instantly fell in love with the melody he was playing. Then he began to sing, just as quietly,

‘I knew how good we had it ever since I left through your cedar door
In the house where we called nothing together till our walls called for more
And the way we fell towards the center
Placing inside each other
Little saints we found on the river floor
Smallness overtook us and eventually you asked me to go
And now I know
Sadness is real but it’s scared of the light
And inside your walls it was always very bright
Now I’m walking here outside
It’s got me wishing and I think I might
Come to your doorstep and ask you just to open up
So if you hear me at your doorstep
Well I’m asking you to open up
So don’t open up or I’ll open up as well
You’ll see that way maybe
We’ll erase our shadows for the night.’

At this point he began to strum the strings harder and sing much louder. I never knew how much emotion his voice could pack, but it was intense. I kept listening because I seriously couldn’t get enough of the song.

‘I knew how good we had it ever since I left through your cedar door
In the house where we called nothing together till the walls called for more
And the way we fell towards the center
And we’re placing inside each other
Little saints we found on the river floor
But smallness overtook us and eventually you asked me to go
And now I know
Sadness is real but it’s scared of the light
And inside your walls it was always very bright
Now I’m walking here outside
You’ve got me wishing and I think that I might
Come to your doorstep
And I’m asking you to open up
So if you hear me at your doorstep
We’ll I’m asking you to open up
So don’t you open up,
Or I’ll open up as well
You’ll see that way maybe
We’ll erase our shadows for the night.’

Then he switched back to his calm, quiet strumming and singing as he slowed down and finished.

‘And our bodies build a fire
Oh
And the kettle sings the choir
Oh

I knew how good we had it ever since I left through your cedar door
On the day that smallness overtook us and our shadows won the war.’

Slowly he ended and smiled. “So, what did you think?”

“That was just… amazing,” I said, standing and pretending to clap.

“Wow, that good?”

“Seriously… no words come to mind that could describe how incredibly awesome that was… well how about… mad dope?” I laughed.

“Then it’s official, it’s going on my next album,” he smiled.

“How long have you been working on it?”

“Oh it’s been in the works for the past couple days, but I just finished it tonight.”

“Maybe you are good enough to make it over here,” I said.

“Well I’m glad I made a believer out of you. Even though I’m pretty sure you’re my biggest fan, you’re just too cool to admit it.”

“You caught me, I am your biggest fan,” I said with a huge smile on my face.

“Aww… I love you little sister.”

“Ew… seriously?”

“Come on, I don’t get sappy very often. Let me have my moment,” he said, spreading his arms for a hug.

“Alright fine… you’re the best big brother a girl could ask for,” I said, walking to hug him so he would put his arms down.

“So I’m gonna keep working on some stuff down here,” he said, pulling away from our little hug.

“That’s cool, I’m gonna go upstairs and get ready for bed. I’ll probably be up awhile writing, listening to music, or talking to Zealand. Have fun big brother,” I said with a smile.

“Later sis.”

Teddy’s POV

As I walked back into my house after walking Jessica back to hers, I couldn’t help but feel like I had really blown it tonight. Everything was going so great, and then I had to open my mouth about seeing Jade. Did I honestly care that she had seen us together?

After the time we spent together at the ice cream shop, I began to think… really think, about the place I’m in. I sat on my front porch and thought about Jade. Did I really mean the things I’d said to Jessica about not being interested in her anymore? Sure I did… its true. Was there really anything that she had that would make me still want to be dating her? There wasn’t anything that I could think of besides that she was popular and good looking. Those weren’t the things I told myself to look for in a girl… so why did I ever think Jade was the right fit for me?

Then, my thoughts turned to Jessica, and a smile crept across my face. There was just something about her. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but I felt comfortable with her. I hadn’t felt that way around Jade since… ever. Wow… I’ve never felt completely comfortable around my girlfriend. It feels strange to admit that… but it’s true.

Am I starting to have feelings for Jessica? I’ve only really known her for a week… can feelings even develop that quickly? I mean, of course I’ve known she’s existed for the past ten years, and I noticed her many times, but I never really knew her. Still… something inside me is telling me to get to know her better… like I’ll regret it if I don’t.

I decided to go inside and sit in the studio for a while. As I sat down at the keyboard, I thought about Jessica, hoping something would come to me… something I could say to her to make up for how stupid I’ve been acting. Something that shows her how I feel. After about twenty minutes of trying different ideas that came to mind, I finally had some music that I thought would be good. Now all I had to do was write some lyrics… shouldn’t be too difficult… writing lyrics was never much of a struggle for me.

It was now 4.00 am and I was finishing recording the song I’d written for her. I was quite proud of how it’d turned out. During these past hours, I’ve had a lot of time to reflect… and I’ve realized something. I can’t be with Jade anymore… especially not since I’m hoping there could be something with Jessica. And if being with Jade jeopardizes my chances of at the very least, friendship with Jessica, then it’s definitely not worth it.

I went to bed knowing there were only a couple things left to do… and the next one had to be done. Tomorrow… or I guess later today… would be interesting.

At noon I decided I’d done enough stalling. I picked up my cell phone and dialed her number.

“Hey there honey.”

“Hey Jade… so do you wanna do something tonight? I think I’d like to go walk to that park down the road from my house. I need to talk to you about a few things that are important to me right now. Would that be alright with you?”

“Yeah sure. I’ll come over to your place at 7, is that okay?”

“Yep. See you then.” With that we both hung up. Now all I had to do was let her down gently and figure out how to get Jessica to give me a chance. Hopefully the song works. We will soon see…

[ohhh ashley]

bowing down.
this is soooo good.