I Could Never Love You Enough...

[Kourtni]

alright. i'm putting the finishing touches on the 2nd chapter! it should be up sometime today!

[Kourtni]

almost finished! i have like 3 paragraphs leftg.

[Kourtni]

Chapter 2

Another month had passed, and it was time for another appointment. Teddy, unfortunately, was out on the road and couldn’t make it to this one. It was kind of depressing to me, but I knew he would call me the second he got some free time.

“Are you ready?” my mom asked as she walked into my bedroom.

“I think I’m about as ready as I am going to get,” I shrugged as I grabbed my purse and looked up at my mom. “Let’s get going. I am ready to get this thing over with. This is going to be the worst part of the day for me.”

“Everything will be just fine. Just know that you can at least try calling Teddy once the appointment is over. Look on the bright side of things sweetie.”

“Alright mom,” I smiled as I walked down the stairs.

-Love You Enough-

“So…how is my little one?” I asked as my doctor walked back into the room.

“Actually, we have some very sad news to tell you,” my doctor said as she sat down on a stool with her big folder of papers in hand.

“What’s going on? Is she okay?”

“She isn’t okay. I’m sorry to say, but we lost her.”

“It’s okay,” I said as I got off of the table, grabbed my purse, and headed for the door.

As I walked out of the office, I tried to fight back the tears. This was one thing, but it was going to be extremely hard to tell Teddy about this. We had so much planned.

-Love You Enough-

“Mom, I don’t know how I am going to tell Teddy. I talked to his mom like six hours ago and told her I REALLY needed to talk to him. She said she would tell him it’s an emergency,” I replied as I paced around the kitchen. “I really don’t know how I am going to break this to him. He was really looking forward to this, and so was I.”

“You are just going to have to tell him,” my mom replied. “There isn’t much else I can tell you other than that. I’m sure it is going to be hard, but this is just something the two of you are going to have to go through together.”

“He didn’t deserve this. This shouldn’t be happening to him right now. His life is just going so great right now. Why did this have to happen? It is going to RUIN his life.”

“I’m sure it won’t completely ruin his life sweetie. It will probably just make him upset for a couple of months. At least you two still have each other, and Deson.”

“He is going to be upset for the rest of his life. What happens if we don’t get married when we are older? What happens if we aren’t giving the chance to try this a second time? Mom, I don’t know what to do. I am going CRAZY!”

“All you can do is take this sort of thing one day at a time.”

“I wonder what is taking Teddy so long. When I spoke to his mom earlier she said he was almost finished with the concert.”

“He may have had an autograph signing afterwards.”

“He always has those, but they don’t last too terribly long. At least I don’t figure this one would last extremely long, since I have to tell him some depressing news,” I said as the doorbell started to ring. “I will go get it.”

-Love You Enough-

Opening the door, I saw Teddy on the other side. This explained why it had been over six hours since I first called his cell phone. How did he get home so quickly though?

“Mom told me you had something very important to tell me. I took the first plane back here. Thank goodness I was just in Tennessee,” Teddy said as I shut the door behind me and stepped onto the front porch. “Oh, I forgot to ask how your doctor’s appointment went.”

“It didn’t go so well,” I sighed as I sat down in the hammock that was on our front porch.

“What happened?”

“Well…let’s just say I will not have to go to another doctor’s appointment until I get married.”

“Are you saying we lost her?”

“Yeah,” I sighed as I felt a tear roll down the side of my face. “I’m sorry Teddy. I don’t know what I did wrong. You didn’t deserve this.”

“Sh…it’s not your fault,” Teddy said as he hugged me and kissed my forehead. “There isn’t anything we can do about it. It happens to the best of us. You didn’t do anything wrong.”

“I let you down Teddy. This is going to permanently damage your career.”

“It’s not going to damage my career. This is just something that will make me stronger as a person and as an artist.”

“I just feel so bad. I don’t know what to do. I feel like all of this is my fault. You probably never want to speak to me again.”

“Kourtni, don’t even talk like that. You know that is not true! I could never love you enough for even going through this for this short period of time. I don’t know how you did it. I definitely wouldn’t have been able to deal with it. I’m going to postpone the next couple of dates that I have planned. I want to take some time off and just spend it with you. You need me right now.”

“You have never been…WHAT? You cannot take a couple of weeks off. There is no possible way you can postpone that many dates.”

“Haven’t we discussed this before? You are more important to me than my career, at least right now you are. I mean, you are going through an extremely hard time right now…and so am I. We need to have some time together.”

“You don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.”

“I want to do this,” Teddy said as I looked up and watched the rain fall down from the sky.

-Love You Enough-

As Teddy and I sat on the hammock looking up at the stars, I heard the front door open. It was probably my mom or brother coming outside to check on me.

“Would you two like some pizza? Mom just took two out of the oven,” my brother said as he tapped me on my shoulder.

“I think I will get a piece,” I said as I looked over at Teddy who nodded his head and followed my brother and me inside the house.

“Sorry man,” my brother said to Teddy.

“It’s okay,” Teddy said as he shrugged his shoulders.

-Love You Enough-

“That pizza was really good,” Teddy said as we walked out to the pool.

“Yeah, mom’s homemade pizzas are always the best. Nobody can beat them,” I said as I sat down in one of the lounge chairs. “Are you going to go for a swim?”

“Are you going to go? I’ll go if you go.”

“It could be relaxing…I guess.”

“Alright,” Teddy said as he took his jacket off.

“Wait, do you think it’s safe to go swimming this time of year? Don’t you think it may be a little bit cold?”

“Babe, it’s the middle of August. It is perfectly okay to go swimming right now. The water won’t be too cold or too hot. It will be just perfect.”

“If you are telling me a lie, you are going to be in a lot of trouble.”

“I wouldn’t lie to you, and you know it.”

“I know you wouldn’t. I was just saying,” I shrugged as I slowly started to ease into the pool.

“See, the water isn’t too bad. It is almost perfect.”

“I love you,” I said as sat next to Teddy on the middle step in the shallow end. “You really shouldn’t even be here tonight. You should be on the way to some other show or state.”

“I could have been out of the country, and I still would’ve come back to see you. You know I would do it too.”

“That’s what I like most about you,” I smiled as I rested my head on Teddy’s shoulder.

-Love You Enough-

“Are you sure it’s a good idea for us to do this?” I asked Teddy as we stood at the door of what was supposed to be Sophia’s room.

“We are going to have to do it eventually. Why not go on and get it over with now? If you just feel too depressed then we will walk out and go to your room or something,” Teddy said as he placed his hand on the door knob. “Are you ready?”

“I am as ready as I will ever be.”

“Alright,” Teddy said as he let out a huge sigh and began to slowly open the door.

The door opened to reveal the very purple room Teddy and I had carefully painted just weeks ago. There were pictures of us all over the room. It was something that definitely brought a tear to my eye. When I looked over at Teddy, I noticed that he too was starting to feel a little teary-eyed.

“It’s perfectly okay to cry right now,” I said as Teddy pulled me into a tight hug. “There is nothing wrong with crying. I won’t tell anyone.”

“I didn’t think I was going to be this emotional about it,” Teddy sighed as he sat down in a rocking chair that my mom had just bought for the room the past weekend.

“It’s okay to be emotional about these sorts of things. I am actually surprised that I’m not on the floor crying my eyes out. I’m just trying to be strong.”

“Promise you won’t leave me because of this.”

“I wouldn’t dare do anything like that Teddy. You have been my biggest support system these past couple of months. Just about everything you do helps me out.”

“I am so glad to hear you say that. I for sure thought you were going to get rid of me.”

“The only way I would ever get rid of you is if I found out about you being with someone else. I don’t think I have to worry, do I?”

“Of course you don’t have anything to worry about. Do I have anything to worry about?”

“You know it’s very stupid of you to ask that question. You know good and well you have nothing to worry about. If you had any worries, then push them to the side because if I didn’t love you then I wouldn’t have gone through what I went through.”

“In a couple of years, if we are still together, do you think you’d want to marry me?”

“Hm…I would think so. You are the love of my life. Teddy, I don’t know what I could do without you. And plus, I think we will probably need to give this whole thing another shot. Would you want to marry me?”

“Of course I would. I honestly don’t think I could see myself being with anyone else.”

“That is very sweet of you,” I said as I started to walk out of the room. “I am feeling a little sleepy. What do you say we go try and get some sleep for tonight? Let’s go out and do something tomorrow.”

“I think we can work something out. I mean, I am going to be here for a few days…maybe a few weeks. You’ll probably get tired of me after a few days.”

“I highly doubt that,” I somewhat laughed as I shut the door and left Teddy inside the room.

“Hey…that is not fair,” Teddy laughed as he started to bang on the door.

“It isn’t locked.”

“Right…I knew that,” Teddy laughed as he opened the door and walked out of the room.

[alyssa duhhh]

wayyyyyy cute.
but depressing.

[dancingteddylover]

aww i think that brought a tear to my eye its so sad aww post mote soon please aww so sad aww

[Kourtni]

i'll try to get at least one more chapter up today.

[Kourtni]

i've started on the next chapter!

[crazy4teddy15]

aw that was so cute! but that's sad... :-(

[Kourtni]

crazy4teddy15 said:

aw that was so cute! but that's sad... :-(

thanks. yeah, it's pretty sad. it took me forever to write that chapter too. lol

[Carie]

awwww thats so sad!!!!
cant wait for the next chapter

[Kourtni]

i'm working on the next chapter as we speak! i HOPE to have it up in another hour or so, but i'm not sure if i'll get it up or not...so i'm not making any promises.

[smile♥]

good job!

[Kourtni]

thanks.

[dancingteddylover]

oo more like seriously this fan fic is such a tear jerker lol i read the last part again (just cause i am down in my basement with a tornado warning fun i know lol) and i need more

[Ally booo yo [=]

awww its so cute! but depressing at the same time